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| hello all! Once again, im in the library using the computer because Mia & i got tired from reading too much, so here we are using the computer. Well, i've got to say, my social life is still treating me like i dont want to be treated. My love life, I HATE IT!!! but oh well, that stuff happens for a reason. & we cant always live a life as a fairytale. & besides, GOD did do this to me for a reason, & i know why. i shouldn't be angry at me though. i can't ever be angry at GOD i love him too much.
Well anyhow, i really love my first period class. GYM. i really love conversating with my friend Cassie. she's also like another Mia to me because she's always gonna be their for you whenever you need 'em. She's really going through the same situation as i am though. LOVE STUFF. When she told me that, i was relieved. IM N0T AL0NE. oh yes.
Well anyway, Mia & i are both reading the same book & it's called. "The Princess in Love." the second volume in "The Princess Diaries". So far the book is pretty interesting. the reason is because Mia & i are both dealing through the same situation as the main character. Sometimes it's funny because we know exactly how she's feeling. But like i said. "ITS LIFE" i wish i could learn to except the BAD too.
0H MY HEAVENLY G0SH!! there's some stupid dude that doesnt know how to cover his mouth when he's coughing !!! TALK AB0UT EEWWW..
Oh yeh, there was this one little fight after school. I was walking with Ronald because he was trying to take my cell phone again because he likes it so much & we were about to cross the street when all of a sudden these two African American Chiqs were slapping each other & pulling each others hair & yelling at each other. It was funny in a way, but then again it was sad. R0NALD was laughing. i was too. but in my head i was like .. oh damn what the heck ?! & HAHAHAHAHAHAHA 000HH SHHHH. L0L xD.. then after that, the cop came & asked what what going on. So yeh, it was over. But we were still laughing. Then he met up with Deven. Then i left & went with Mia.
MAAANNN Mia just showed me the DVD of "A walk to remember". mann .. out of all the other DVD's she could've picked out. But it's okay now because she just showed me some DVD's that JONNY DEPP was in. Well my time is almost up. when i come home, im gonna try to go on the computer & blog again. | | |
| Till this very day i continue on being in B*tch mode. Maybe it's because im always waking up so early & im just not used to waking up so early in the morning. Like the first day of school. I ended up missing three of my classes. Gym, Mathematics & English i know, i know. that sucks because i missed out on alot. But it's not my fault. i just dont like waking up so early. I guess you could say that im not a morning person. I set my alarm to 6:00 am today & i still couldn't wake up in time. I ended up getting out of bed when it was 6:40 am. Oh well, it's done with.
Anyhow, my life is very complicating. im being picky on what i want to become when i grow older. At some phases i feel like being a smart person & i really do act like one, for the next couple of weeks. Then im back to normal. That sucks because i just cant get in the habit of just staying like that. G0D GIVE ME THE STRENGTH... I mostly need the strength to move on. Move on meaning getting over the person that i really care about. That sucks how one day you guys are really happy & you think that nothing bad will happen between you guys, & then the following day, it's over & you dont even know where you guys went wrong & all of a sudden he starts to act like nothing was there & that you guys never even exsisted or knew each other. After all the good & bad times we had together he let all of that go away. I know that we were only talking for 2 months but he still really meant alot to me. It didnt even have to be that way. Till this very day i still dont know where we went wrong. But only G0D knows how we both feel towards each other. Sometimes i wish that G0D will give me the talent to read peoples minds so i can find out how everyone thinks about me. I wish i could read his mind & maybe other people too. Like the HYP0CRiTES or "TW0.FACES .. yehh those people. The main things that i always think of in my mind is .. " if only he knew how much i really cared about him.. maybe if he went to sleep tonight & i asked G0D to tell him exactly how i feel about him in his dream then maybe when he wakes up he'll realize how much he means to me. But then again im always thinking that maybe he might think that it's just a dream & that it's not even real. I talk to my friend RIKKI about it & he just tells me that i should just tell him in person because then it'll be harder for him to reject me because then he'll feel bad too.. I want to do that so badly, but REJECTI0N is the number one thing that's keeping me from doing that. I really do wish that i could turn back time so i could fix everything that we did wrong. Another side of me would wish that i could turn back time so that way we would'nt think that we would exsist. Like the begining of the school year. We never even knew that we exsisted. We both thought that were knew. Then next thing you know, we were talking & that was the most happiest day of my life & i would give anything just to have that back. I really need to get over him though because im not going anywhere right now. But then again G0D always gives me this hope that theres something that still there but i just have to be patient & i need to follow G0D first .. & that maybe he's letting this happen because were not ready for each other yet & that when we are G0D will let us be together again. All i have to do now is just pray." Till then .. goodbye. | | |
| hello everyone! School just started today. & This morning was weird because i couldnt wake up to get ready for school because i was so used to sleeping late and waking up late. I set my alarm to 5:00am, but i guess that didnt work out because i couldnt even hear it. I didnt even hear the doorbells ring. & my friends were already there. Every morning they ride with me & afterschool i get a ride from them. My grandmother woke me up, & when she did i looked at the clock & it was already 5 mins. till the school bell was gonna ring to go to class. I was soo upset with myself. But i just went to sleep again. Then, when i woke up it was 8:57am. I tried so hard to get up, but when i got up i flopped back and just layed down on my bed. Finally, i woke up.
I ended up going to school still even though i was 3 hrs. late. I missed 3 classes. PE, Algebra & English it's okay though, i can just ask my teachers on what i missed out on. When i got there the bell just rung to go to lunch. & all my friends were asking me where i was. Then i told them what happened. That was that. I felt so weird when i was there. I felt that there was this really big pressure building inside of me & i didnt even expect that to happen. Usually i just get that whenever i go to school, but other than that, i feel normal, happy & free. i cant breathe when im there. iono why, it's just like that at Bell. I cant wait till i get out of that school.
Afterschool was funny. I told Mia that i wanted to go to the library to check out some books & stuff. & Mia was all, "0H MY G0SH!! Y0U ACTUALLY WANNA G0 T0 THE LIBRARY?! W0W .. IM SUPRISED!!.. SURE WELL G0 T0 THE LIBRARY!!! xD".. lol xD .. yehh shes the coolest .. gotta have a friend like her .. well right now were in the library & our time is almost up so im gonna end this one here .. bye !! | | |
| hello everyone. Today was a really boring day. This morning, i was on the computer to finish working on my project. Then my aunt and i went downtown to take pictures with her camera. It was pretty fun because i was goofing around. It was hillarious! Then after that we got hungry so we went to auntie joys house to eat. We ordered Papa John's Pizza. there pizza is okay. I like Pizza Hut better!!! . after we ate, we rested for a while and then we went home. I was craving for starbucks and i still am. Right now, im on the phone with my buddy Kyoto he's the funniest dude ever !! well. i think thats all `iim gonna say for today. till then. good night. `iim tired of typing and right now i got a buddy to talk to. bye !! | | |
| hello everyone! today is going to be a really nice day. My aunt is
about to pick me up in a little because were gonna go to the mall..
other than that, i can really see how my life is becoming easier and
better for me now, because i'm starting to see things that i've never
seen before in life. and now i'm understanding things much better too.
anyhow, i woke up this morning and of course i did my prayers, thanking
God for everything... for life.. etc. and he gave me this message. it's in Ephesians 3:16-20 this message made me smile.. hope this message will make and impact in your life too. GBU
Ephesians 3:16-20
16 . I ask the Father in his great glory to give you the power to be strong inwardly through his Spirit. 17 . I pray that Christ will live in your hearts by faith and that your life will be strong in love and be built on love. 18 .
And i pray that you and all God's holy people will have the power to
understand the greatness of Christ's love- how wide and how long
and how high and how deep that love is. 19 .Christ's love is greater than anyone can ever know, but i pray that you will be able to know that love. Then you can be filled with the fullness of God. 20 . With God's power working in us, God can do much, much more than anything we can ask or imagine.
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